Separated

My step had been so far away from my home,
I didn't know why I couldn't turn back and runaway,
just stuck in my daily life with strange guy,
who I didn't recognize again....

For years, I had known him,
It should be worked for both of us..
but I was wrong so hard,
I was struggling the wrong guy,
I was holding my proud so tightly,
and now, the world against me back

If I lived here for another round,
I would die soon without any weapons in my bare hand
If I leaved him for my freedom,
I would fly as free as a bird which let it out from a golden bird cage...

and I chose to separate..
I lived my own way and I didn't care what's happened to him
I got my life back....my own dream, my first aim,
I thought that everything would be just fine with my breakout decision,
and that was God's willingness

but, I forgot that there's people behind me,
This is a never ending nightmare for them...
and that was my last chance to meet my beloved one,
my baby.....

Life is gambling, no one will know what will be happened tomorrow,
or next second, or next minute, or next week, or next month, or next year
and I'm here laughing my silly life because I'm separated from my own kid..my little son,
I'm not crying, I just can't do it anymore, my tears have dried..
I won't regret my decision, I just surprised with the result....

Seeing my daughter crying in her bed, begging for a reunion...
but my stubborn kills my feeling,
Now, I'm only praying for my baby boy in every single night,
may God always protect him and return him to me on the next future...
Maybe right now, it's better for us for being separated...