Loser Like Me

I'm standing here
just watching my face
and everything is going suck up
What do I look?

Bad.....yes...
Evil....absolutely
Loser......that's me

We can see who will be crying a lot in the end
Only me
I know that I will get a karma
Never forgiven

I'm lying if I say I'm not lonely
but this time I have to be a Drama Queen again
Acting like everything is alright
No hurting me
No disturbing my mind
Just laughing and smiling
but my heart is really pain
badly....
like a knife cut my heart


Question number one
Why I always be a broken-heart girl?
What I'm looking for?
Wealth?
Secure?
Proud?

I forget to see any true love in front of me
I'm just wasting my time to search anything else
and my chance has gone
I'm like donkey
Repeating same mistakes
Never be realized that I'm just lonely

I am just loser
No no no, never never like me
Don't ever be a loser like me

That Should Be Me

My past is haunting me behind
Making me an broken hearted woman
I can't trust you
Never let you win
and I realize that I drown to sadness

That should be me by your side when you're sad
That should be me by your side when you're happy
That should be me who laughing a lot with you
but I understand I can't go back anymore

Your pain can not got better
Your broken heart can not be rebuilt
Your trust is gone with the flood
Never go home and never been forgiveness

That should be me say "I do" in the altar
That should be me having your baby
That should be me growing old with you
but I understand that It's too late to say sorry

I promise, someday, when someone else has knocked the door
I will be faithfull
I swear I'll be a better woman
and I am here pray for your better life
May all happiness is around you
Without look up behind anymore...
I love  you with my deepest heart which whispered silently