I have a sin
which is never be forgiven
I will not blame anybody
but please, understand me
I was ever hurt by someone special in my life
until now, my heart is broken
with every regret and revenge
I change myself to be an evil
I can't trust them
Every man, they are jerk
I never can give all of my heart
my body and soul
just for one
This time for me to revenge
not to him but somebody else
twice and I never regret
now, we are living a drama
full of liar
and we never want to start
If I start it first, I will be the guilty
It will be a weapon which stroke my heart
If he starts it first, he will be busted
and he never want to be blamed
We just share, talk like a robot
knowing each other that the story will end
but we just wait who take the first
in the end, a starter will be the wrong one
We just say love in lie
never feel it deeply
because we know that I am the evil
and he never understands why
twice and it is repeated
and in the end, I will be the prisoner
Selasa, 28 Desember 2010
Minggu, 26 Desember 2010
I Can Do Better
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Friday, June 19, 2009 at 3:44pm
I know that I'm not beautiful like other girls
I know I don't have perfect body like them
I know I have no dress which bling bling like in Broadway
but
I'm smarter than that Stupid Girls
They always laugh roughly in public
and smoking like it's just fine
Trying to prove that they are the most beautiful girl in the world
I can do better than them
I can make myself be sexy if I want it
I have a bigger brain, not bigger mouth like them
maybe some people look at me like old woman
who never like painted hair and piercing and smoking
but I just an ordinary girl
who more enjoy to be an unpredictable girl
The word "Just be Yourself" is very ancient advice
but the most important thing is never let others know who you are truly
I can do better than them
They always be nice outside but rotten inside
I never believe an inner beauty
but I can do better to be attractive girl
Just always having a journey to adventure
Trying something new to face this cruel world
See? I can do better!
I know I don't have perfect body like them
I know I have no dress which bling bling like in Broadway
but
I'm smarter than that Stupid Girls
They always laugh roughly in public
and smoking like it's just fine
Trying to prove that they are the most beautiful girl in the world
I can do better than them
I can make myself be sexy if I want it
I have a bigger brain, not bigger mouth like them
maybe some people look at me like old woman
who never like painted hair and piercing and smoking
but I just an ordinary girl
who more enjoy to be an unpredictable girl
The word "Just be Yourself" is very ancient advice
but the most important thing is never let others know who you are truly
I can do better than them
They always be nice outside but rotten inside
I never believe an inner beauty
but I can do better to be attractive girl
Just always having a journey to adventure
Trying something new to face this cruel world
See? I can do better!
Good Girl Goes to Bad
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Friday, July 10, 2009 at 9:29am
I forgot when I never could take a breath just for second
Pumping my heart and hiding my own truly
just keep and keep my emotion, my own habits deeply
to see others smiley for me
but now, that's enough
I have my own failure when I try to please everyone
Just suck with their face
I can't hold on anymore
Trying to be the best person in front of them
I was a good girl
who never went to a wild
just sat on my chair in my home and did nothing
far away from bling bling world outside
but I won't be a rotten ugly girl
This time for me to change my life
breaking the rules
no matter what they say
be different girl and no one can stop my step
cause this good girl goes to bad
I will make over myself
not only my dress outfit
but inside of me
I will go for my own way
and grown up with my own decision
and I won't be a good girl forever
trying to keep them happy
but they never understand me
I just never ask for feedback
but i need to be respected
Now this good girl goes to bad
who never listening waste words from others
Pumping my heart and hiding my own truly
just keep and keep my emotion, my own habits deeply
to see others smiley for me
but now, that's enough
I have my own failure when I try to please everyone
Just suck with their face
I can't hold on anymore
Trying to be the best person in front of them
I was a good girl
who never went to a wild
just sat on my chair in my home and did nothing
far away from bling bling world outside
but I won't be a rotten ugly girl
This time for me to change my life
breaking the rules
no matter what they say
be different girl and no one can stop my step
cause this good girl goes to bad
I will make over myself
not only my dress outfit
but inside of me
I will go for my own way
and grown up with my own decision
and I won't be a good girl forever
trying to keep them happy
but they never understand me
I just never ask for feedback
but i need to be respected
Now this good girl goes to bad
who never listening waste words from others
When You're Gone
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Monday, July 20, 2009 at 3:34pm
This note I dedicate for all of bombing victims in Jakarta on July 17th 2009
We started the day with new spirit to work and to do the best for everyone we love
That morning was so shinny and we had planned to spend that day with many things we like
We had thought that tomorrow would be a long weekend, so we would pick up our family for travelling, enjoying time together after we went back home
but we felt that the air was so hot and fire started burning our body
we felt so scared but the pain made we couldn't hold on anymore
we felt very hurt but we never could ask for help
The only thing in our mind was Why me? Why now? Why here?
Many questions we thought but no one could answer it
We just saw that freak people thought that they have won the game
but They never won the game
they are only a loser who never take a responsibility on what they have done
Our God will not keep silent forever
He will recover this world and heal our home town
We knew that we would die now
but We had known that our God, whatever our religion,
He is more stronger than that freaky people
In the last minute we had to stay alive,
we remembered our family, someone we love,
and took a pray that they will live happily without us
We started the day with new spirit to work and to do the best for everyone we love
That morning was so shinny and we had planned to spend that day with many things we like
We had thought that tomorrow would be a long weekend, so we would pick up our family for travelling, enjoying time together after we went back home
but we felt that the air was so hot and fire started burning our body
we felt so scared but the pain made we couldn't hold on anymore
we felt very hurt but we never could ask for help
The only thing in our mind was Why me? Why now? Why here?
Many questions we thought but no one could answer it
We just saw that freak people thought that they have won the game
but They never won the game
they are only a loser who never take a responsibility on what they have done
Our God will not keep silent forever
He will recover this world and heal our home town
We knew that we would die now
but We had known that our God, whatever our religion,
He is more stronger than that freaky people
In the last minute we had to stay alive,
we remembered our family, someone we love,
and took a pray that they will live happily without us
My Happy Ending
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Saturday, August 1, 2009 at 10:44am
At the first time, I see that everything is just suck
Loneliness almost graps me behind
and sadness is my friend only
but after crying in my bed,
I feel that this is the way,
They left but I'm OK
I feel better now,
I know that they will happy without me
and I'm very ready to start my new adventure in my life
I'm sure that I will have my own happy ending
I'll face any challenge in front of me
Starting to say that I can make my dreams come true
Maybe sometimes I can be so weak
but I can pimp my self soon
because I'm an independent woman, I feel free now
and the story will be happy end now
Loneliness almost graps me behind
and sadness is my friend only
but after crying in my bed,
I feel that this is the way,
They left but I'm OK
I feel better now,
I know that they will happy without me
and I'm very ready to start my new adventure in my life
I'm sure that I will have my own happy ending
I'll face any challenge in front of me
Starting to say that I can make my dreams come true
Maybe sometimes I can be so weak
but I can pimp my self soon
because I'm an independent woman, I feel free now
and the story will be happy end now
A Crazy Thing Called LOVE
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Monday, July 20, 2009 at 4:24pm
This note I presented for girls who have a wonderful love in their life
Oh no no, He's coming to my heart
without knock the door
act like a robber
trying to steal my heart
but I'm trying to avoid this feeling
only curiosity is left under my brain
When He is back now
I still want to know how is he
He's so mysterious
just keep silent but make me want to run to catch him
Oh God, my mind is gone
my heart beat so fast
and my eyes can't stop look at him
his eyes are so bright
and when he smiles, I feel I want to fall to die
My mind is asking, is He a human?
hahahaha
Oh my, I think I fall in love
He is a special one
He makes me do many crazy things in the name of love
but He still does nothing
Keeping his save area
and make me wonder, he knows that I'm here, doesn't he?
Oh My boy, realize that this girl is waiting your attention
Stop your cool stuff, and let me know you deeply
Don't stay away but get closer
This girl also has many secret things you never expect
Just wondering she is so unpredictable girl
She can make you feel the extraordinary love in your life
So that's my point my boy, I have this strong feeling
My heart is singing a song, its title is a crazy thing called LOVE.....
Just go around with me, and we will live happily ever after!!
Oh no no, He's coming to my heart
without knock the door
act like a robber
trying to steal my heart
but I'm trying to avoid this feeling
only curiosity is left under my brain
When He is back now
I still want to know how is he
He's so mysterious
just keep silent but make me want to run to catch him
Oh God, my mind is gone
my heart beat so fast
and my eyes can't stop look at him
his eyes are so bright
and when he smiles, I feel I want to fall to die
My mind is asking, is He a human?
hahahaha
Oh my, I think I fall in love
He is a special one
He makes me do many crazy things in the name of love
but He still does nothing
Keeping his save area
and make me wonder, he knows that I'm here, doesn't he?
Oh My boy, realize that this girl is waiting your attention
Stop your cool stuff, and let me know you deeply
Don't stay away but get closer
This girl also has many secret things you never expect
Just wondering she is so unpredictable girl
She can make you feel the extraordinary love in your life
So that's my point my boy, I have this strong feeling
My heart is singing a song, its title is a crazy thing called LOVE.....
Just go around with me, and we will live happily ever after!!
Love Of My Life
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Sunday, August 2, 2009 at 10:57am
I wanna cry all night long
but every second I give thanks for what I've received from God
I'm so happy
all of sadness in my heart is gone
and I'm looking for joy
I hear a music in my head
it flows in my ears, in my heart, full in my brain
This music is so soft and excites my blood
I feel like I am standing on a fairytale
Life is how to face the reality in this world
I feel the pain, I feel so sick here
I feel that I am left
but my dreams will not stop my step
I run, I chase, I catch
This music is going to reffrain
It's not about rock, classic, pop, or jazz
It's rythim on your head
and you feel so touchy
and it makes you speechless
You wanna cry because this song gets your attention
I see that the sky is blue
It's so beautiful and the flower makes you want to smell it all day long
and when I write this note
I can't stop it
this music will not end
go and go
moreover, my blood is so exciting
My inspiration
My core
I don't wanna wake up from this dream
I won't stop
this is my time to change this world
with my gift from God
I will make lot of creations
I love, feeling the true love
this song will be end
but not my foot
my hand
my eyes
my ears
and my heart will not sleep
I will write and see that everything is done well
I will stay write another story in my life
and I will learn every breath that I take
I will fly on my music
I type each font
like I'm playing a grand piano
nothing else is heard
just me and my music
My artificial work
My new hope
and how I can reach it
I cry now not because I'm sad
but I have seen a story
eventough it's not a real
but it makes my life so great
and the music starts going to coda
it's over but I will play it again
over and over again
but every second I give thanks for what I've received from God
I'm so happy
all of sadness in my heart is gone
and I'm looking for joy
I hear a music in my head
it flows in my ears, in my heart, full in my brain
This music is so soft and excites my blood
I feel like I am standing on a fairytale
Life is how to face the reality in this world
I feel the pain, I feel so sick here
I feel that I am left
but my dreams will not stop my step
I run, I chase, I catch
This music is going to reffrain
It's not about rock, classic, pop, or jazz
It's rythim on your head
and you feel so touchy
and it makes you speechless
You wanna cry because this song gets your attention
I see that the sky is blue
It's so beautiful and the flower makes you want to smell it all day long
and when I write this note
I can't stop it
this music will not end
go and go
moreover, my blood is so exciting
My inspiration
My core
I don't wanna wake up from this dream
I won't stop
this is my time to change this world
with my gift from God
I will make lot of creations
I love, feeling the true love
this song will be end
but not my foot
my hand
my eyes
my ears
and my heart will not sleep
I will write and see that everything is done well
I will stay write another story in my life
and I will learn every breath that I take
I will fly on my music
I type each font
like I'm playing a grand piano
nothing else is heard
just me and my music
My artificial work
My new hope
and how I can reach it
I cry now not because I'm sad
but I have seen a story
eventough it's not a real
but it makes my life so great
and the music starts going to coda
it's over but I will play it again
over and over again
I'm a Good Girl, Too Good For Dumb Guys ^^
by Josephine Paula Anindia on Sunday, September 6, 2009 at 2:40am
No matter what they say
I like to be like this
being my self,
enjoy adventure
and trying to walk out the lines
So, why you try to change me?
That's too naughty!
Maybe your Ex is a sweet girl
who always say YES for what you say
but I'm not her
I say NO if I don't disagree with my own principle
and I go with if this is my way
You call me Bad Girl?
You're so dumb
I'm a good girl,
Smart in my school,
Cute in my outfit,
and so nice to others..
I'm the princess and she is the cruel witch!
You never save me for that b/witch, ha?!
Oh My God, another prince charming is coming to town
Go away, please..
You start to make me suck
Your face is not good to be seen
and I'm too good for dummy guy
hahahahahahahahha
I like to be like this
being my self,
enjoy adventure
and trying to walk out the lines
So, why you try to change me?
That's too naughty!
Maybe your Ex is a sweet girl
who always say YES for what you say
but I'm not her
I say NO if I don't disagree with my own principle
and I go with if this is my way
You call me Bad Girl?
You're so dumb
I'm a good girl,
Smart in my school,
Cute in my outfit,
and so nice to others..
I'm the princess and she is the cruel witch!
You never save me for that b/witch, ha?!
Oh My God, another prince charming is coming to town
Go away, please..
You start to make me suck
Your face is not good to be seen
and I'm too good for dummy guy
hahahahahahahahha
My Heart is Not For My Daddy
I dedicate this note for my lovely little cousin...
I wake up at midnight
Silence is around me
I'm afraid because I'm just a little girl
but I can't speak
I have no any strength
Why I'm alone here?
I have a whole family..
I have everything I need
but I feel missing something important
What's that?
Can you help me to find it?
I'm crying
I'm lonely
I wanna sleep with Daddy
but he never there
I'm wordless
please come here for me
I need affection from you Dad
not your money
not the dolls
not your fake kisses
It happens again
I sleep in dark closet in my bedroom
Daddy...Did you ever love me?
Did you?
I wake up at midnight
Silence is around me
I'm afraid because I'm just a little girl
but I can't speak
I have no any strength
Why I'm alone here?
I have a whole family..
I have everything I need
but I feel missing something important
What's that?
Can you help me to find it?
I'm crying
I'm lonely
I wanna sleep with Daddy
but he never there
I'm wordless
please come here for me
I need affection from you Dad
not your money
not the dolls
not your fake kisses
It happens again
I sleep in dark closet in my bedroom
Daddy...Did you ever love me?
Did you?
Go Back Home
I have been here for a long time
Going adventure everywhere
but never found what I seek
Never stop making mistakes
Stupid decisions and regret behind
But now,
It's time for me to go back home
Running fast for coming back
I know that it'll never too late for go back home
Maybe I was blind before
that I never realize that 20 years I spent
I've learned many things
from my parents, my friends, and from this world
I forget something important
that God is there for helping me
But now,
In my 21 years old, I want to go back home
Trying to keep my self before in the back door
I'm sure that I never late for go back home
I just have a little time to start a new day
Tomorrow I have no time
Start from today, act like I will die
with God beside me from now on
And now,
It's my turn to go back home
Don' t try to bend me
I just want to go back home
and go back home...
Going adventure everywhere
but never found what I seek
Never stop making mistakes
Stupid decisions and regret behind
But now,
It's time for me to go back home
Running fast for coming back
I know that it'll never too late for go back home
Maybe I was blind before
that I never realize that 20 years I spent
I've learned many things
from my parents, my friends, and from this world
I forget something important
that God is there for helping me
But now,
In my 21 years old, I want to go back home
Trying to keep my self before in the back door
I'm sure that I never late for go back home
I just have a little time to start a new day
Tomorrow I have no time
Start from today, act like I will die
with God beside me from now on
And now,
It's my turn to go back home
Don' t try to bend me
I just want to go back home
and go back home...
Triumph The Giant
Sometimes we don't have any choice
to live easily, having a lot of money
and everything is done by our plans
but, life is not that simple thing
some people say that life is like a wheel
sometimes you will be up, on the other hand, you will be down
for me, life is adventure..
you will face something easy today,
but tomorrow you will never know what challenge will you seek
Maybe something will be worse, it makes you scared or doubt
or maybe it will be harder and you feel that you can't pass it
Then, you feel that this is time to stop and give up
let everybody say you are a loser
and you will loose more and more
Don't do that!!
we know that difficult time will be over
and the sky is still shinny
flowers still blossom beautifully
The next day we will say I have a new hope for this day
I am ready to face every giants in my life
and conquer them strickly
Finally, we will triumph all of them with a big smile in our face!!
to live easily, having a lot of money
and everything is done by our plans
but, life is not that simple thing
some people say that life is like a wheel
sometimes you will be up, on the other hand, you will be down
for me, life is adventure..
you will face something easy today,
but tomorrow you will never know what challenge will you seek
Maybe something will be worse, it makes you scared or doubt
or maybe it will be harder and you feel that you can't pass it
Then, you feel that this is time to stop and give up
let everybody say you are a loser
and you will loose more and more
Don't do that!!
we know that difficult time will be over
and the sky is still shinny
flowers still blossom beautifully
The next day we will say I have a new hope for this day
I am ready to face every giants in my life
and conquer them strickly
Finally, we will triumph all of them with a big smile in our face!!
Wisely: I am a Single Lady
When I was a baby
I would be treated like other kids
trying to be sweety girl
with many smile in my lips
so girly and people said "You're so cute!!"
When I was a teenager
Smile was missing me
It had lost somewhere so faraway
and I started to be a rebellion
Just said NO if someone asked for something
Showing a funny face if my mother brought me a silly dress
and people would say "You are a rude girl!!"
But now, I have been grown up
I am a single lady with my own identity
Speaking wisely and thinking ideally
Ready to face many challenge in my life
and I will meet a right one to live with me until I close my eyes
Oh yeah, I am a single lady
My words always tought before I talk
Just wise, be smart...and let people say "You're so georgeus!!"
I would be treated like other kids
trying to be sweety girl
with many smile in my lips
so girly and people said "You're so cute!!"
When I was a teenager
Smile was missing me
It had lost somewhere so faraway
and I started to be a rebellion
Just said NO if someone asked for something
Showing a funny face if my mother brought me a silly dress
and people would say "You are a rude girl!!"
But now, I have been grown up
I am a single lady with my own identity
Speaking wisely and thinking ideally
Ready to face many challenge in my life
and I will meet a right one to live with me until I close my eyes
Oh yeah, I am a single lady
My words always tought before I talk
Just wise, be smart...and let people say "You're so georgeus!!"
I Just Follow Your Shadow
If I have a courage from the day I realize that I feel this...
I will run to you and say don't leave
I will be your prince charming, the guy you always dream in your every single night
I ride the white horse with a sword in my sheath
and the only thing I shout to you is I will rescue you!!
If I touch your hair and smell it
This is rose I guess or maybe Sandalwood
My nose is tingling but I like yours
It remains me of flower field in my dream when I see your deep eyes
That field is endowed by shinning sun
and starting to flow slowly because the air
Just this present day, I see that your hands is belonging to him
I never get the light but I walk in your shadow
Watching that the day is turning to night
and I can't find your shadow without the lamp
You're lost from my eyes and I just can follow your shadow
I will run to you and say don't leave
I will be your prince charming, the guy you always dream in your every single night
I ride the white horse with a sword in my sheath
and the only thing I shout to you is I will rescue you!!
If I touch your hair and smell it
This is rose I guess or maybe Sandalwood
My nose is tingling but I like yours
It remains me of flower field in my dream when I see your deep eyes
That field is endowed by shinning sun
and starting to flow slowly because the air
Just this present day, I see that your hands is belonging to him
I never get the light but I walk in your shadow
Watching that the day is turning to night
and I can't find your shadow without the lamp
You're lost from my eyes and I just can follow your shadow
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